I had an all night dream that took place in the setting I grew up in. It was the same piece of land that I grew up on. The house was different, an actual house instead of a trailer. I was married, we had one neighbor who lived close. I was a killer in thisContinue reading “Last Night”
Sweet Bebes (Why did I wait on these?) Go to sleep-
Will be Orhan: First Kill, now streaming on Paramount Plus. We loved her then and we love her now. Have a good weekend. Trying to come back here more, this year has been all over the place, not that you care. Whatever. Movie’s good already. Live Reactions- “He bought that for a baby he deservedContinue reading “Tonight’s Movie”
Damn that Cat. DIRECTOR! COME GET THIS CAT! F!!!!! I’m done. Today I wanted to go Live on TikTok but I couldn’t get it together. To make myself feel better I decided to get some pictures with the good light. Most of them came out right. The body shots-WHICH ARE NOT EASY IN THE FIRSTContinue reading “Outtake”
More weekend of July. We are already halfway through summer, thank all that is good. Twice this season the weather has saved my mental health; I hate summer but I love summer thunderstorms. We’re going to be alright. You know what’s fucked up? I had just started feeling like my life long attraction to RussiansContinue reading “One”
In my chair wondering how everyone else is. Hopefully there will be something pleasant in the weekend for you. The last few weeks have been crazy, I’ve had to take some mental health time, keeping all of the updated all the time is a little overwhelming for a guy who never really liked social media.Continue reading “Sitting”
Usually, it’s Xena, we know that. Tonight it was Black Butler. I love animation, you guys. It was this or Soul Eater. (Or something new, but I did not have the energy.) I did, go on stage tonight though I wasn’t going to perform. I’m glad I did ok it. There was some very funnyContinue reading “Goodnight”
The power’s out So it’s you, me and Who’s Afraid of Vaginia Woolf. “You laughed your goddamned head off.” In the candlelight. Happy Tuesday.
Tonight was bad. I already vented on Twitter. Basically, I bombed so bad tonight it wan’t funny. I mean I wasn’t funny. Everyone else was. Everyone else did well. Special thanks to the Host, Beth, who was amazing. Opening was good. That old mother fucker came right at you and your keywords didn’t he, bitch?Continue reading “About Last Night”
Today has been something. As soon as I woke up I went to the gym. On the way there my legs and glutes were beginning to pre-cramp, so that kept me out of the pool. The only thing I could do was lay outside and go to the steam room. I was exhausted by theContinue reading “Duran Duran”
Tonight, was better than the last time I went up.The nerves were on my freaking head the entire day. Up until today it wasn’t clear to me when I’d go back.It was so bad last time. Everyone who was up there was a regular and I REALLY liked that feeling. Two people who were usuallyContinue reading “After the Storm”
Grrrrrrrrr My sleeping clothes are so cute And my hair won’t cooperate. (He means it’s too long.) Whatever. Been in the car today. Tired as a hell. You guys have a good night.
I just got the “bullshit is that you” look at the gym, and that is always nice. I turn a pretty color in the sun. Cut to me, trying to apply enough sunblock. Before that, someone watched me consume my entire meal today and I wasn’t sure whether to be horrified or flattered. I’m choosingContinue reading “On the Upside”
(Rated TV-MA!) Owwchies. I ate it so hard tonight… undeniable shit show tonight. I don’t know what happened, except maybe that I wasn’t balanced, if you understand. Twice now my instincts told me not to go up, and I did it anyway, and twice I went down in flames. Hey, fun fact, I am aContinue reading “About Last Night”
My insomnia is bucking like it always does this time of year. We both kind of hate spring. You think late winter is bleak but I hate the heat. Summer will be better. I’ve had a wheeze since COVID and all I can think of is right now how to alleviate the embarrassing thing. FreakingContinue reading “Reset”
Yesterday, I had to do some driving. Last Night, I had a crazy dream. Here we go. So, the trip I took yesterday involved a lot of back roads. At the opening of the dream, the sky was sunless but not full dark. In this dream, I could run really fast. What I am tellingContinue reading “W.D.”
Hello, Hello!! Welcome Back! First off, let me say, Sorry for the absence of any decent content in so long. He is in charge of a frozen continent and sometimes the waters surrounding this bitch get choppy. You are welcome here, and I am glad to have you. Today is as good as any toContinue reading “Pleaster”
On vacation, I went outside to smoke. The smoking area was very blah. I saw some stairs going down. The stairs looked very Westworld. It was all open air and concrete. One floor down it looked the same, On the second landing it turned into a horror movie. On the lowest level there was aContinue reading “Poof”
Will be Chakram. Season 5 Edpisode 2. Featuring Big Sexy And Brokeback HailMary. If you get that joke we should be friends. hit me up. And Clover Valley Jesus. (Ugh.) hate Eli. I’m sorry. Hate him hate him hate him, I’m sorry. There are some very racist episodes of Xena Warrior Princess….. Like that blackfaceContinue reading “Tonight’s Episode”
Yesterday, I put my earrings back in after not wearing them for a year. I have been in various degrees of defensive dress for a while. It’s Enough. You Potato. I look much better with them in. I’m sorry if earrings offend you, it is not really my choice. Pardon me- My earlobes aren’t asContinue reading “Tonight’s Episode”
Is Takes One To Know One Season 4 I can’t, let’s just get some rest.
(pardon me) Yesterday, Was some bullshit. My family got in my head. (My Fault) I knew I had been being too nice. And you start thinking that maybe Walder Frey was justified… And you stop, because- no he was not. Ooooohh it hurt so bad. Good luck next time you cheap bread eating–YOU KNOW WHAT?-I’mContinue reading “Yesterday”
I got a boost that I needed. Fuck, I wish we weren’t all fighting right now. I got some writing done just now, it makes me happy. Good lord I hope I don’t die poor. Be Thee Fortunate.
Last Night, I dreamt of a sanging reality show. I was in the cheap seats. Duh. A Girl came on stage and began to slay. Immediately, just Whitney Houston killing it. Dead silence from the crowd, they weren’t reacting because the girl was Asian. I screamed my head off for Her. and then “Fuck Them!”Continue reading “Idol”
It was shortly after Mother’s absence when I started having to rage on my Father and Brother. Already sad Already furious They expected me to carry on, AND clean up the emotional muck of the Family like I had done when we were all present AND they wanted to tear me down to degrade meContinue reading “Bad Religion”
How hopeful you felt in early 2016? AS IF it was all 2020, As if the last freaking while hasn’t been dreadful. Doesn’t mean it’ll be bad forever. It’ll get better. I don’t know how, but it will.
Because of the lies little gay children are taught, I did not believe that there was such a thing as consensual sex between two people of the same sex. EVER. I was told there is no reason for that to ever happen and that there was certainly no happiness to be found. While happiness isContinue reading “Glitter”
Wait! I have a better one! (Actual) Story Time. It’s one for the senses. Today, we will hear the story of how I almost fainted in the steam room. It happened this afternoon after my workout. It has never happened before. Usually, I like to pace in the steam room, which only works when thereContinue reading “Weight”
Last night, I had a crazy dream. First, the air all around was lit the blue-gray color of sunset. The feel at first was certainly more horror. Some crazy shit was happening, or had happened and we were trying to stop it or prevent it from happening. I don’t know. Also, at the beginning ofContinue reading “C.D.”
To this day, Straight people treat me one way, Then another when they find out I’m gay. What is that? My entire life. I have learned that whatever their reason is, just let them go. Unless they are important to you, who cares what they think? This reaction from a loved one is aContinue reading “Present”
David Archuleta came out. I was waiting on that. You mean “Should’ve Won?” Should’ve Won came out. I don’t think I knew how much I needed that. You mean instead of that Angel, It was a vampire looking sucker? YES! I KNOW!! I’m behaving. He was so cute, I was so bothered. He is 31!Continue reading “🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶”
Happy New Year. It was 80 freaking degrees today. The world is dying while our leaders fuck up after fuck up. I cannot. I refuse to let this year be shit. Not in this trailer park. Not Today. First of all, you can do whatever you want. You just have to be ruthless and strong,Continue reading “First”
It is the FATHER that determines the Height of a child. FUCK! And I’m understanding the looks my Mother’s Brothers used to give my Dad. Which is FUCKING RIDICULOUS IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT. She could be Brienne of Tarth and it would not matter my master plan is FUCKED! I really needed giant babiesContinue reading “AAANNNDDD”
I saw these when they came out “JUST STOP THAT TICKING!” It changed my Life “How ’bout Some Ice?” It was with my favorite roommate. We could not get over Her. My Favorite Comedy is where a normal person is driven to go off. I love it. “WILL YOU STOP THE CLOCK WHILE I LOOKContinue reading “Live”
Are we finally at the spot where I’m allowed to admit the feminine men are where it’s at? Is that alright yet? Obviously, I can only speak for my personal preferences, but still. Age is irrelevant. Yes, pretty. And a little frail-looking, if I’m honest. He can be bigger so long as I can liftContinue reading “People”
When I first got out on my own my Mother gave me some good advice. She said, “Don’t sleep with anyone.” It was the Exact opposite of what EveryOne else was saying. Basically, it was the 6 Month rule. I know she was worried about me picking up something from a VERY small dating pool.Continue reading “First”
Before I was afraid of the dark, I would nap outside at anytime, wherever I found a spot. When you live out in the country you can do that. I’d always get sleepy a sunset, doze off for an hour and get home before the stars were out. So. What HAPPENED WAS I passed outContinue reading “Lights”
My Baby My Baby
Only respect power. That is IT. I’m not there yet. I’m sorry, damn it. I am trying! That is what I get for slacking off at the gym. It’s fine! We are not done with this conversation. We are not done.
Your Name Engraved Herein (2020) Was a BEAUTIFUL freaking movie. Oh my God that was amazing. Holy Crap. No. no. FUCK your Brokeback Mountain-THAT is what we are looking for with “complicated”. I never fell in love with any classmates. Unless you count that bitch, Justin. Gross. And I had no clue until adulthood. JasonContinue reading “Wave”
They’re all slowjams. ……….. What I meant to say is that I’m grateful. I was about to give up until The Cafe. I didn’t say that. Don’t give up, you should listen to it. Must By 2PM. You Must. So, it’s a groovin’ album? No, the old bitch gets it. I get it. He saidContinue reading “6:45”
I love (LOVE) feeding my yard birds. I don’t know why, but it is incredibly therapeutic. They are so smart. The Crows are my favorite. BlueJays are a close second. When people used to talk about birdwatching I would check out. Let me tell you something, it is freaking insane. Watch a bird stack twoContinue reading “Featherweight”
*I can’t remember precisely where the dream starts. I do not know where the others came from.* There was a group of between 12-15 of us standing in a small greeting area that was pretty but spartan. There was light flooding through a large rectangular window that was off-center, on the far wall, to myContinue reading “Dreamz”
Everyday of my life I am grateful that my Stepmother was an old-school Woman who gave “no fucks” about anyone’s nonsense. She just sent me a message that says “Don’t trust anyone.” You know I￼ don’t. God￼, I love that woman. Because she knows￼. And I don’t. I really don’t. Trust is for Falls andContinue reading “Warm”
For a long time I have been on the scent of something foul. I knew that it existed but I couldn’t figure out how to bring it up. The world has paired women and queer men together like they are the same; they are not. Homosexual men can display more prejudice against women than heterosexualContinue reading “Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men”
I was walking down a windy street, lost in a daydream, when I went for it and prayed to my ance-sisters* for help. Their answer was soft and comforting…until, -WHAM!- “He won’t save you.” fell into my head in the correct tone. Then, sadder, “He can’t.” which eased it. Then, darker, “We couldn’t save ourselves.”Continue reading “Mama Said”
At 15 I had one shot (one real shot) to escape in my own right and I squandered it trying to prove a point! I. wanted. out. I know he loved me, it wasn’t enough that motherfucker was crazy. (He, yes he, specifically, tried to break me. It didn’t work. I’m still who I’ve alwaysContinue reading “15”
I needed Katara’s number. Wait! Let me Finish! I did not reach out he sent me a stupid Christmas message in a bottle and my dumbass opened it. It was only his number in red and green. Of course. You know who he is. Anyway, I needed some help from Katara. I wanted to talkContinue reading “On Robert Pants II”